The End has No End

Disappointment lies at the end of every path i seem to take.

Hasnt been a good week in school at least. Fighting against or conforming to the ever unreasonable Hierarchy. Left with no options. Not voicing my opinions or not speaking up because it would only bring up more problems.

STATUS : SINGLE AND UNAVAILABLE.

I'm beginning to wonder if that's necessary...

Went to OCH last night after a couple of hours in town. Exploration was... alright. A little boring though. But fun experience.

Back to Kelly's after that for supper and games.

Take it or Leave it...

The awkwardness between us, the silences we face. Yet i want you to stay, stay by my side. Maybe my head's not right, but i think i'll be alright.... if you stay by my side.

Someday.

Work is slowly piling up and i'm too fucking lazy to complete it. And i finally started on New Moon.

Priority. =)

I shouldnt love you but i want. I shouldnt see you but i cant move, i cant look away.

Really happy Kris won American Idol and TJ won Survivor.

A Crow Left of the Murder.

I WANNA GO FOR FOR THIS CYCLE'S EP LAUNCH! ANYONE INTERESTED TELL ME. $15 only!

Will sparks fly and our souls spiral in union towards the sky when our lips touch? Fate or Initiative?

i want a car, a licence, someone to drive around with...

TATTOO DESIGN TO BE POSTED UPON COMPLETION!

see you soon,
KeZia

DEFENSIVE!

LIFE HAS BEEN WILD! NOT! =.= So many things going on. Busy busy busy. Caught Angels & Demons earlier this week. Pretty good movie. Went to Gardens over the weekend too. I MANAGED TO BORROW A PRETTY GOOD CAMERA AND DID SOME RECORDINGS! =D will post em up soon. NOT REALLY GOOD THOUGH. And and and this week has been pretty hectic with like... school and stuff. OCH soon. hehehe.

REALLY SHORT POST FOR MANY THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED i'm REALLY LAZY! I shall go and do some shit now.

BUAIZZZZ! =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXG8qNJb0qg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ab70kQCRV1o&feature=channel

What are we brought to Earth for?

Did you come here to kill or did you come here to die?
And did we really think that spaceships would descend from the sky?

Bending light and beaming forth across space-time
To see us scared in the reflection of their oil black eyes?
And stalk us like a predator
Like our movies imply?

They're not the ones who come to kill us,
Come to fill us full of lead
They're not the ones who hate us
And they are not the ones who mutilate our animals
Or travel through the stars; they're not the ones who cause us harm

We are
We are, we are, we are
We are still-life and cold blooded
(WE FEEL NOTHING! )
We are still-life and cold blooded
(WE FEEL NOTHING! )

Hellbent on Heaven [x4]

While our righteous men are stuffing corpses full of shit and faith

We are, we are, we are still life
We are, we are, we are still life
We are, we are, we are
Still-life

They're not the ones who cause us harm
We are, we are
(Did you come here to kill or did you come here to die?)
We are still-life in cold blood
We are still-life in cold blood
We feel
We feel nothing

Stuffing corpses full of shit and faith
They bloviate about a future beyond the moon
To bring about another planets doom
To discover peaceful life
And beat a war-drum to it's tune
Unless my prayers are answered
And our end is coming soon.

Split the skies of Thunder, The fortress of clouds. Limb from Limb

Oh My Fucking God. err went to school to meet chow to makan. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I'VE EATEN AT SOUTH CANTEEN AND LIKE SOME HOLY FORM OF ENLIGHTENMENT, I HAVE NOW OPEN MY EYES TO THE FACT THAT SOUTH CANTEEN FOOD IS SOOOOO MUCH BETTER THAN THE CRAP THEY SERVER AT SOUTH CANTEEN. then went for shift.

Did some customer service thing which took quite some time and patience. Went back down only to get fucked by the one and only. So we decided to redo everything. First time see JC pissed. Then redo already go back chill at Bazaar. then go do some end shift shit then dunno what else lah.

Then go to town for dinner, then go clarke quay then then then... dunno why confusing hot and slightly shy. BUT overall managed to have a decent time with almost complete strangers which i can no longer consider strangers i think. And i got to see a slightly wild side of my future classmates which does make me worry a little if i'll be like the oh so many examples i saw around the area that night. PEOPLE were puking and like stoning and lots of other zombie like behaviour all over the place. I have a sudden strong craving to shee-the-fucking-sha. Took first train home.

I THINK there are photos on Facebook already. Plus too lazy to post photos here as they take forever. HANDPHONE GOT PHOTOS FROM OTHER DAYS AS WELL BUT I CANNOT FIND THE FUCKING CABLE TO PLUG MY PHONE TO MY COM. anyway my phone is so fucked and i've been complaining so much to my parents that i think my dad gonna pass me this.
Right. 5mega pixels i think. And i'll test if the video recorder is good.

RIGHT. So overall i should be happy. and i am? =)

I really want PROTEST THE HERO to come to singapore lahh. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

And i'm gonna say no to WEED. FOR FUCK SAKE I DONT WANNA DIE from smoking some poisonous grass.

i dont know HOW to USE Caps properly.

TODAY was alright. slept abit. Reinstalled my Garena finally, CS-ed a little. Dinnered later, and now i'm here doing online shopping which is like wtf cause i need someone to help me with their bank account. zzzz.

RIGHT. SO GONNA GET FUCKED RIGHT NOW CAUSE I HAVENT DONE THE FORMS YET. SORRY YR. WILL DO FAST FAST AND SEND BACK TO YOU. LUB LUB K? xoxo.

am i a Paranoid Android?

Backstreetboys WOO!

Rows of houses all bearing down on me
I can feel their blue hands touching me
All these things in all positions
All these things will one day take control
And fade out again and fade out

This machine will will not communicate these thoughts
And the strain I am under
Be a world child form a circle
Before we all go under
And fade out again and fade out again

Cracked eggs dead birds
Scream as they fight for life
I can feel death can see it's beady eyes
All these things into position
All these things we'll one day swallow whole
And fade out again and fade out again.

fade out....fade...out.

out of the window, i hear fake mechanical thunder.

Next week is gonna suck.

KthXbye! (I'm so cool)

WTF?

k. woke up at 9am for GOD knows what reason. Fuck.

My msn is going bonkers.

if i actually cared, maybe less people would be hurt.

LOST LIKE ALL MY MONEY ON FACEBOOK POKER DUE TO A CERTAIN AH LIAN. damn sian.

Spent another $145 on something special. WHICH MEANS I'm just about broke. AND i have to go town tonight which means more moneyyyyy is going to be GONE GONE GONE.
Hopefully things will go well between us given the large gap between our ideals that make us somewhat so similar.

Striking thing happened this morning. I dreamt of Mas Samalat last night. And this morning i woke up to the voice of my dad. I rubbed my eyes and look up and he was standing next to my bed holding some newspapers. And he said, "Mas Selamat Captured! LOL?" and i was like wtf?, am i still dreaming?

k stupid story. Guess that's the most exciting my life's ever gonna be.

Sometimes you cant make it on your own...

I want to lose myself. I need to. Cause it's only when i lose myself that i will really find out who i really am.

Happy times seem to be coming. But then further ahead i see the dark deep valleys i have to pass through and all i can do is pray and hope that somehow grace will bring me through. Strangely although i'm no longer a believer this statement is so close to the bible.

An experience is all i hope for to take that step. but then again it's the step of faith i need to take before i can gain that experience.

Love is temple, Love is a higher law...

Time doesnt wait for anyone. So treasure the time you have with the ones you love. Dont let time take them away from you cause the pain is there and i can feel it. I can feel it right here. right now.

Reinventing My Exit.

Gah GAh gah! Didnt turn up for my match today. So gonna get fugged by my boss. Anyways. Went to Bugis in the afternoon and left bugis at around late late at night.

The air i took in had never been sweeter.

Branded goods are like sooooo common these days. And of course the people who are so brand conscious. But then again, so am I.

Life's been alright since whatever nonsense happened last sem. And i'm quite happy i got into TEP. Of course hanging out with the guys regularly helps me maintain my sanity. (or whatever's left of it?)

Really tired and it's obviously showing.

I wish you were a stranger i could dis-engage.

Badmindton hopefully soon with whoever, and the apparent Jogging with my new found gay. Fuck.

Wolverine was fun, So was the drinking after. And i've been recording stuff with just lately. Hoping to do more cause it's damnnnn fun!

Online shopping just cant beat the real thing. Touching, feeling, and trying on pieces of clothes is just like an addiction. Although the price tags lately have been a real spoiler. I shall soon have to try and sell my Ted Baker Collection for some money. Anyone interested please let me know!

Also. New guitars!!! acoustic is almost fucked completely, electric is slowly dying on me, and the bass is just for practice. Quality is shitty. AND AND AND! I NEED A KEYBOARD!

Someone drop $1m on me right now. I will Lub Lub euu 4Eva and Eh-baaa! xoxo.

And if i'm not wrong. I've a date on saturday. And that's gonna be 1 heck of an expensive date. PLUS i gotta do something for M.O.M. Shitt.

Put other's before yourself!

Ooo.. i can now tell Fake from Real and Real from Fake!

I'm going to die young. And i need to lose weight. Or build muscle.

i'm soft....

Hey... if you read this, i miss you. I really do. Laughing at your jokes. Talking to you and just spending time with you. Really made my day.

GP. i hope i see you again. We'll have lots of catching up to do.

I'M SO INTO LIKE DANCE MUSIC NOW! ONE MORE TIME!!!!

k. this has been 1 heck of a retarded post.

Night night. And as promised from the apparent last post. Peektures!