Surviving.

Wow. It's been quite awhile since i last posted. Been kinda busy with the hols and what not. Been jamming a little more these days. First week of school. Or is it the second? Yeah. Anyway, it's over and i dont really like this new time table. Have to wakew up effing early everyday. Class is as usual. Dont really wanna talk about it. Been shopping a little too. Overall.... SAME OLD SAME OLD. And it's freakin 3.20am and i'm too tired to think about any of this crap. So a few thousand words in the form of pictures will be coming soon. Other than that, GOODNIGHT!

It's been awhile

So... the past 2 weeks have been... busy if i should say. Last week went out a couple of times, practically going all over the place for stupid reasons. This week, went to play pool with chow after my exam. Then played some guitar. Went for the Starhub interview. In the end the only reason why i didnt get it was cause my chinese sucked. After that headed down to macs to meet nat and titus. From there met Wankar and his friend. Lanned at Evo with them. Eugene and Aaron joined us. Wankar and friend left for cage. Then Ming Yang joined us and we headed back to PS for dinner. After that walked around J8 with aaron for awhile. Then homed.

The next day, Went to play Tennis with Kaijun and Aaron. Badminton too.

With my butt aching, i went shopping the next day. Went down to Anchorpoint. Ate lunch there and shopped a lil. Bought a shirt and my bros present. Then bused down to town. Shopped a little more there then it was pool. Chow joined us, followed by Aaron, Eugene, then Julia. Havent met her in a long time. Had dinner at Makansutra. And just being there allowed me to finally understand what all the hype was about. The F1 really is pretty exciting. So after dinner we went to the water side to play abit of guitar. Then we all MRTed to J8 for coffee. But the whole place was already closing. So we initially planned to ton at Eugenes. But last minute changes so cancelled. Couldnt really sleep so decided to watch 21. Really good movie. Plus supper. Then slept for about 2 hours. Then got up and cabbed down to The Cage. Played for a while then KFCed.

Cabbed home just in time to catch Premiere of SURVIVOR!(SPOILERS AHEAD) OMG! Charlie and Marcus are sooooo gay! Gillian and Michelle were both bitches so who gives a shit about them. Thank GOD they're both out. and RANDY IS EVIL! But i like it. And the nerd is so cute. Haha. Kenny!!!! Right. Cant wait for next week. Also heard season 3 of Heroes is out. So better catch it as soon as my internet is fixed. Cant get online recently cause starhub has issues.

After survivor, watched south park. Then fell asleep and woke up in time for the Baby show. Then watched the F1 warm up round. Seems like Alonso is doing pretty well. Sure am hoping that it'll rain this week end though. Should be really cool if it did during the race. Might be uploading pictures but not tonight. And not playing Dota for about a week and i'm already having some withdrawal symptoms. Haha.

OKAY! BYE PEOPLE! SEE YOU SOON! <333

Clarity

The past week has been pretty alright i guess. met up with nat and chow for pool, met Eugene for job and then pooled later, went to hangout a couple of times nearby, bla bla bla. Went to the airport, went to town, etc. Just like that a week has passed. Wow.

My gaming mouse is so screwed. Super pissed off man. Everything good that happens to me tends to screw up really quick. Really hoping to get good results on Tuesday. Gonna catch a movie soon. I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA GO OVERSEAS!!! I'm so sick of Singapore. I just wanna go to another country and live another kinda life.

Things arent looking so good right now anyways. It doesnt feel so perfect.

I think Rob Scneider movies are really funny.

I WANNA LIVE OUT ONE OF MY FANTASIES!

And because you wanted this, HELLO MELISSA! haha again!! Bloody bitch! GO AND DIE GO AND DIE GO AND DIE! LOLOLOLOL!!!(inside joke)

Really dont wanna go back to school. T.T annabel, when you gonna come cry with me? =(

really late and i cant remeber much. Except that i'm so in love with hilary duff and CLM! =)

You know i love you so...

Well.. this week was busy. Went to town twice with different people. Really had fun overall. Shopping quite abit and i must say. I'm getting abit rusty. Haha. Really need a job now. LOW ON CASH PEOPLE! So buy me something. =)

Mainly shopping the first time.

Second time was all about guitars. Went to test some, bought some new strings. yeah. stuff like that.

Played pool on both days. No wonder my pockets feel so darn empty.

Slept over at MY's place with Nat on friday. Astons and stuff. DotA, Movie, zz. They slept at like 3 and i watched movies through the night. WTF. Forgetting Sarah Marshall is a damn funny movie. I like Russell Brand. I hate Lead actors dick.

Next day was lunch and awkward police moment. Then to Novena to chill.

I'm getting lazy for details.

Oh and i'm like sooooo fucking loserish. I just recently found out that topman in orchard has closed. Like ALL outlets. WTF man! But Topman aint all that anyway. This seasons designs kinda suck.

Just had some not so great crabs at Toa Payoh. some snacks then back home to see some actors getting killed in really disgusting ways in King Kong. And a stupid ending but it cant end any other way. and wtf Natasha learns ballet? zzz... gotta see some splits. Heh.

Maybe one day, we'll have one more shot... and i'll be able to treasure you and provide for you better. I'm looking at your picture cause it's all i've got.

Tired of this game we're all playing. Time to twist things up.

BEEZEE!!

so... tuesday was spent going to AMK for lunch and pool. Chia came down. Snooker was really funny. Haha. Then headed down to Orchard to shop a little. Had dinner at Far East. Continued to shop, walking all the way down to Dhouby Ghaut. Sadly Felicia couldnt come down to play pool. T.T So headed home.

As time goes by and we all see more of the world, we begin to understand how horrible the it really is. I mean, the harsh reality is that the world is a cruel place. People are selfish, inconsiderate, etc. And it is only then, that we begin to plan out our actions and do things not because that is who we really are, but because we want certain people to think a certain way about us. We begin living sort of a lie. But as we slowly grow into that character we portray, we realize that it really isnt all that great. And it is then that we cherish the simple times we used to have when we werent so exposed to the world.
So which is better? Altering this world and becoming part of it, or trying to avoid it unsuccessfully?

And with that, i have also been able to see. Who my real friends are. Although they may have certain unwanted characteristics and behaviours, it is truly amazing to see that they are willing to stay behind you if not beside you in times of need. Be it when you're feeling lonely or just need a shoulder to cry on. And i have learnt that sometimes, you dont need to know someone well to trust him/her. Sometimes, that trust just comes through the way we click or a certain similarity about us.

Manipulation. A scary thing. Beware of it.

If you could see into my soul.

Teachers Day

Woke up at 8plus on teachers day. Then took my time and headed down to braddell hieghts so that i would be fashionably late but not too late. When i arrived, only Eugene and Kevin were there. Wtf man. Eugene's hair is gay. So talked awhile during the wait for the rest to come. Total we had what.. 7-8 people? Thankfully, some JC peeps we knew passed by and we had a game. Quite fun i guess. It's been so long since we've played soccer together. Then off to Macs for some lunch, and back to school. Met so old friends there. Leonard, Alvin, Wayne, Marcus, Red Face, the list goes on. After alot of talking, headed to MY's house for guitaring. Then went to Kovan for some pool, but it was so fucking full. Everywhere was so crowded. So Cabbed down to Katong. Pooled and Lanned there. Getting late so most of them left. We went for Katong Laksa. After that it was shopping at Parkway Parade with Kaijun. Bought 2 shirts from Espirit. Topman aint all that these days. Their colours are awful. Then bused back to J8 for milkshakes and then home. Overall it was pretty fun catching up with everyone. Should be tonning next week.

I dont know what to do with my life.

Credibility

So... I've been thinking about you. Ever since that day, it's been on my mind. If we would ever go further. I dunno. I think i would try it out. We do connect dont we? Ah well. Nevermind. Once again. I aint gonna go through. I'm just wasting everyones time.

Help me please. I'm soooo screwed up this time round!!

Bashing the fist made round my neck, excepting the end.

i wanna feel that way again. Like we're the only 2 people in the world. In each others arms. Letting out all our feelings and emotions, knowing the other would embrace it all in acceptance.

On the other hand, the feeling of losing everything.

I guess i've already made my choice. I'll have to try and understand why i did it.

i think i'm seriously unlucky. Falling for a girl i can never have.

This.is.bullshit.

Crying myself to sleep. =(

Balls.

Today was kinda tiring. Woke up early to go play tennis with Nick. It was damn fun. Though alot harder than it seems. Kinda miss the old days when we all just hung out together as one big group and laugh all the way till we couldnt catch the last bus and had to cab back for about $20. =.= After that, he was suppose to go for a job interview but decided not to go. So off to J8 for a late lunch and catching up. Your magic tricks are shitty by the way. Haha. =) Hopefully meeting up with Nat and whoever else soon.

Kinda miss everyone from CSCC. it's been such a long time. And i just feel that going back would be so awkward. GAH!! Okay. Totally ruined my mood.

Doubt i'll be going for BBQ on friday. Sorry!

Badminton on Monday if everything goes as planned?

I'M SO IN LOVE WITH KIM AH-JOONG!!!!!!!

Holidays are here!

So... Exams are finally history, and the Holidays are just beginning. I'm not really in a mood to work though. We'll see how things go. Baybeats this weekend! Gosh. Time really flies. It's almost the end of 2008. Today is the end of Beijing Olympics too. Really fantastic Ending ceremony man. Britain looked so stupid. Haiz... really gotta give it to China. They've just proven to the world why they are a super power in this world.

So... After stats, met up with Nick and Chow. Caught up abit. Really had fun. But after that i was bloody exhausted. So i headed home and the supposed plan to have overnight DotA was cancelled. Next day was spent chatting up and arranging meet ups. Caught a couple of movies too. And this time i really did play DotA overnight. Damn... slept at like 7. Woke up at around 1plus to play more DotA and watch Olympics.

To all of you Athletes, I really admire most of you for working so hard to be where you're at now. I believe everyone of you are winners. I mean even if you dont have a medal, having the opportunity to represent your country is truly honourable. I can only dream of having that opportunity. So cheers to all of you. =)

Headed over to have dinner and catch the closing ceremony. Valerie as usual ate extremely slowly. xD

Really need to trim my hair soon. It's getting way outta hand. Literally. And shopping of course. Hope i havent lost my touch. Ooo kinda excited about the sports and stuff we might be doing during the holidays. Havent touched the racket in ages.

I'm sorry if i've given you the wrong idea. I was just trying to be a friend. Good or bad, you be judge. But i thank you for opening yourself up to me. It helped me understand more. =)

Taken is a freakin good movie. All you movie lovers go catch it ASAP!

So cold you burn yourself.

(Another) New Beginning

Cause LJ is so laggy and i dont know why, i decided to create another simple blogger. =) So this is the first post here. Hopefully the first of many to come.

I shall call you Kezia.